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~ went to andrea's birthday party.. there's nothing like 25 year-olds roller skating.. i fell down a lot less than i figured i was going to.. once, as a matter of fact.. got a hugeass blister on my foot (that 'exploded' while skating) that has since gone away.. got to talk to people from bg that i haven't gotten to talk to in a long time, and that was nice..

~ this past weekend, went to arizona with andrew and his family.. his older brother lives out there.. i've never been.. andrew and i went only for the extended weekend (left on friday, got back on monday), his parents and younger brother are still there.. went to both the grand canyon and meteor crater the same day.. (pictures will come later) it's odd to think that we went to two national parks in the same day, in the same state, one that was created over thousands upon thousands of years, and the other in 10 seconds.. that night, i hung out on the patio by myself for a while, basically meditating and dealing with nature and perception.. then realized that's pretty much what i had been doing most of the day..

~ heading to gettysburg, pa, on friday for a family reunion.. should be rather fun..

~ even though i felt bad about (mainly because i feel like, since i got them to begin with, i should take care of them), i gave my guinea's to a person we know that has 3 kids.. i don't feel too bad about it, since the kids had been asking for guinea pigs, and they would give them more attention than i would, which is the part that i feel the most bad about..

~ got my paperwork for my position at wayne state the other day.. got it all filled out and mailed back in.. yay..

~ i think i've figured out what i want to do.. after my stint at wayne state is done (i don't know how long they expect me to stay/how long they plan on keeping me), i'm going to apply to lots of different universities for these same types of jobs, at places all around the country, and possibly outside the country, and move to where ever they hire me.. then, after my time is up there, do the same damn thing over again.. see the country/world that way.. i decided this while out in arizona, thinking "you know, i think i would be okay living here for a year or two".. and decided that, in the process, i intend to go see the sights and whatnot where ever i move to..

~ speaking of moving, i get to move into the apartment in ann arbor on the 29th.. that's a friday.. that next monday, i start at wayne state.. yahoo..

~ we may have a lynx here.. the past two nights/mornings, there have been some crazy noises, and when i looked up wildlife stuff, my parents say that the lynx sound is exactly what they've been hearing..

i apologize in advance for the length and disjointedness that is bound to occur in this post.. 

this past week, week and a half has been absolutely...crazy? weird? starting with last

monday (the 7th), my parents get a call from the real estate broker (or whatever the hell you call him.. i am not at all business savvy..) saying that they had someone who was interested in looking at both houses (neither of which were yet on the market) at 6 the next day... soooo... for the remainder of that day, we cleaned... then, while my dad was taking stuff out to the storage unit they rented just for this, we get a call from our neighbor saying "can you come over here? i think my dog is dead"... we go over, and indeed, he's dead.. (he was big and like 16 years old, so not too surprising) as the sky is losing light, we start digging a grave, and end up burying the dog by car headlight..

 tuesday was andrew and my 4th year anniversary.. and for the second year in a row, we did not see each other... no.. spent the whole damn day packing things and cleaning for an event i didn't even want to occur... and broke down a little... tuesday's are my volunteer days with the horses, which is from 5:30-6:30... so after it was over, i called my parents (they were out with jenny, since they weren't supposed to be there while the person is looking at the house) to see what they were doing, what i should do.. they suggested seeing if the people were still there, since i was seriously less than a mile down the road.. get there at about 6:40, and no one is back there.. i tell my parents, they are kind of amazed (and i think pissed... all the work for people looking at it for about half an hour... at TWO houses in half an hour...) and they come home.. we discuss what we want to do for dinner, and i'm just about to get in the shower when a truck drives up.. turns out the person who wanted to look at the place told the broker that 7 would be better, and the broker would then call us.. which he didn't... so while i'm feeling all gross, i head out with my parents and the dog to various places around town... we come back after an hour, and they're still there.. finally, about half an hour or so after that, we come back, and they're finally gone... my dad takes jenny out for the last time of the night, and she breaks her choker chain trying to chase something, but luckily stayed around...

wednesday after i get up, i am informed that my parents believe they know what jenny was going after the night before - there's a kitten that came towards the house from the field.. the kitten would meow and meow, but wouldn't let my parents get very close to him.. so i go out and try to find the kitten.. and yes, he was very talkative.. after talking back to him and chilling for a bit, he lets me pet him and pick him up.. so i take him in...

i actually forget what happened thursday and friday.. though susan did come out friday to give me a key to her place since i'm dogsitting for her.. that's actually where i am right now.. been here pretty much since saturday...

saturday, i take her dogs out to the dog park that's near her house, then went to the grocery to pick up random stuff for while i'm here... on my way out of the grocery (at about 9ish), i find out it's POURING!! and if i say pouring, i mean pouring.. i'm not whiny about rain.. since i had a cart of stuff, i decide to leave the cart at the overhang, go get my car and pull up to the overhang and put it all in.. and of course, as i'm running out to my car, i slip and fall, effectively breaking the only pair of sandals i had packed, and scraping up both my knees and the front of my ankle.. yes, only i could do that... i get back to susan's house, where i had left lights and tv on... (i claim it's for the dogs..) it's completely dark.. the power's out... and, i find out, the back yard is flooding, with the water within an inch, probably less, to the top of the door.. so, while absolutely soaked and working by candlelight, i bandage myself up..

i end up not leaving the house until monday (since i can't really go anywhere that isn't my parents house due to broken sandals), and just watch tv and crochet.. whee.. go to the house and find my last pair of sandals, along with my zune, which had gone missing as well.. and today (tuesday), had my last bit of volunteering..

this weekend i'm going up to ann arbor for andrea's roller skating birthday party.. next weekend i'm going to arizona with andrew and his family to see his brother.. the weekend after that i'm going to gettysburg for a family reunion...

i can't wait to start working (mainly due to lack of money, but also because i'm getting so BORED), but that's not until september.. it's kind of annoying.. i never heard back from the other place i interviewed.. i did, however, get a bite from another lab, but had to reject them (that gave me a mixture of feelings - both happiness and regret)

i've decided there are various things i want to do sometime in my life... like go to iceland and new zealand.. i'd also like to go back to europe, but for a longer time... i'd also love to go white water rafting... and go see the grand canyon (hopefully while i'm out in arizona this next weekend.. hint hint..)

there are some ads that have been really pissing me off lately... the damn antibacterial ads, especially for those for killing bacteria in the bottom of the toilet.. come on people... do you not realize this is why we're getting all these super bacteria? jeezus.. also, all these ads that are for two things at once.. like pizza and the batman movie... or circuit city and hancock.. there are a few others out there as well.. and really, it just pisses me off... there's another one out there, but i forget what it is.. EDIT: oh yeah! the damn wendy's commercials.. i hate the "if X and Y, then Z" approach to advertising, which is all they've been doing lately... "frozen beef, cows in antartica" crap... "if X is good and Y is good, wouldn't X+Y be good good"... bah... stupid commercialism...

okay.. i guess i've lost my writing steam.. totally amazing, right?

apparently my parents are seriously considering selling the house and land and moving to a place in town.. i really don't know what to think about it.. i mean, i'm the fourth generation to live here.. i don't really want to see it gone.. on the other hand, i don't think there's any real way that i could live back here (i.e. piqua).. i don't think job opportunities are too abundant here, especially not anything that i'd be looking for.. and i know it's a lot of work for my parents, especially given how old these houses are.. but that's all part of the charm, you know? i guess i just fear that if they really do sell this off (and in all honesty, even when i'm doing work around here, it does feel somewhat like a retreat, due to the amount of land), some company will snatch it up and demolish the houses (one of which was built before the civil war.. how can you destroy that?!?) and turn the land into a cheap-ass housing development or something.. i don't know... i'm so conflicted about it.. and again, in reality, i don't know if i would ever come to live back here, but at the same time, i just always went on the assumption that i would receive this land and these houses..

and i don't know how to express this to my parents.. because i feel like i'm being selfish..

am dog sitting for a family friend this week.. kind of nice to have a place to myself.. even if it's not mine.. it does have hdtv, and i've been watching a lot of hd food network stuff.. i would not mind working for the ace of cakes people..

have two interviews next week.. one monday in detroit, one tuesday in ann arbor.. both for universities.. yay..

had my first volunteer thing today.. apparently the horse and i connect.. according to the person in charge, she had never seen that horse stay that calm throughout a session before.. so, yay for that, i guess...

my dad quit his job today.. which does make me feel even worse for not having some kind of a job right now.. though i am doing this dog sitting for money, so..

one of the ads on the side of here is about jaw death.. i kind of want to click on it..

mary, who is my oldest (in the terms of knowing each other) friend, is getting married in less than a week in florida.. i've decided that in lieu of a traditional gift, i'm making them (more her, really) a blanket.. i really need to start crocheting it while i'm here..

i guess it's time for me to shower (since i haven't since galavanting around with horses) and crochet.. it's kind of, erm, interesting to shower in places that are not home..

i finished the harry potter series last night, and it's weird.. i feel like...well, not like i lost a friend, but something similar to that.. however, i suppose that now i can "get on" with things that i really ought to do..

along that vein.. i may be volunteering at a place literally within walking distance for me (which really says something), which is a place for kid rehabilitation with horses.. apparently all i would do is walk with the horse, and (hopefully) not be responsible for the kid.. if nothing else, it will help me get out..

also.. and more importantly.. i have an interview!! wahoo!! at the u of m.. lab manager.. i'm keeping my fingers crossed..

the puppy (okay, okay, so she's 3.. but still a puppy..) goes in for neutering early thursday.. apparently i'm responsible for her not eating anything after midnight on wednesday, since i would probably be the only one up..

i'm far too sensitive for my own good.. :/

saw a damn dog food commercial and got slightly misty eyed over a dead dog i didn't even know..

and i feel bad about my guinea pigs.. they don't get enough attention..

sigh...

so, i have a wiifit now.. after doing like an hour of stuff on it yesterday, i'm sore today.. which led to me doing nothing but reading, really.. i'm now on the 6th book of harry potter, btw.. i've been applying to jobs left and right (according to the u of m job website, i've now applied to probably 25 jobs there).. started applying to things at wayne state in detroit too.. and of course, been looking at things on monster..

fast forward to, well, 30 minutes ago..

the three of us are watching ghost hunters.. hear a knock or something out in the laundry room.. at first think it's one of the animals knocking something around.. then it comes again, so we make dad go and look and see if someone was there.. the door opens, and we hear a voice that's crying.. a woman was driving along and had hit a dog.. she didn't know what to do.. she didn't want to wake people, since it was 11pm, and she didn't know if she needed to call the sheriff or something.. she said that it was a black dog, that came out of no where.. and she was so shaken.. she kept apologizing.. and she was just sobbing.. after she calmed down a little, she left, still apologizing, and we head down to where it was.. turns out to not be a dog we knew (read: ours or our neighbor's), and actually did not have a collar on.. luckily, no other cars had come that direction since she had been there, so it wasn't too beat up.. my dad checked to make sure it was dead, and moved it off the road, into our ditch/yard, in the hopes that, if it does belong to someone, they'll be able to find it..

it was sad.. quite a pretty dog.. well, in my standards.. a black collie/shepherd-ish.. with a jake tail..

thus, my uneventful/eventful day..

i helped andrew move into his dorm, and i gotta say, it's not too bad... his mom and i helped move him in, and then we got to remember what having two people sleeping on a twin mattress feels like.. also, i started reading the harry potter series.. him having classes while i needed to stay in his room (due to a lack of key and a lack of knowledge about eastern's campus) really facilitated this process.. i started the first book helping him move in.. i'm now on book four.. i've been devouring them..

i went to the necto for the first time in yeeeears... and got a kick-ass diary/notebook as a late birthday present...

went to the crazy scabble party up in east lansing... i think andrew and i make a good pair for the game tribond.. which only sounds kinky.. made a shirt for the occasion... Z10..

been trying to clean up the mess i've made in my parents house.. being unpacking things so i can repack them better... being more ocd about things in a way.. or at least some things.. it's been rather slow going, though.. for reasons i'll get to in a second..

i've been applying to jobs like crazy, both to temporary ones around the dayton area for the summer, and to more permanent ones in ann arbor.. all i hear back is that they've already filled the position.. even though i've gotten a lot fewer of those responses than the amount of resumes i sent out, i'm still getting rather bummed about it all, and wondering what the hell i need to do..

on an up-side, i will soon have health insurance again.. wahoo.. yay for the univ of delaware actually providing temporary health care to graduates..

so, i still have a totally fucked up schedule, though it still doesn't feel all that bad.. i guess it's just because i'm still comparing it to college life.. but by the time i'm ready to do things, my parents are home and other things have to be done.. which is why my repacking is going not so well..

i'm conflicted about my guinea pigs.. they're adorable, but more importantly, i took them on.. however, i'm wondering just what the hell i should do with them when i move..

there's all this stuff that i want to do, but don't feel like i can since i live with my parents.. actually, it's just because i'm not living by myself... like, i desperately want to start a plan to better myself.. like cooking and exercising.. and this would also include making a schedule for myself.. and that would be a lot easier if i don't have work around other people.. that, and i don't like looking weak/asking for help.. (ps, that's a lot of my issues right there.. ) the fact that i am pretty much constantly feeling as though i'm in transition just does not do me any good right now..

shit.. there were other things that i knew i wanted to write in here.. i don't remember what the hell they were..

accomplishments
~ i have successfully weaned myself off zoloft, which is good because i no longer have health insurance
~ i moved out of the apartment and got money back
~ i canceled my evil comcast subscription, though only after several attempts did they get it right
~ after an overdraft charge that i tried to stop, i canceled my bank account on the east coast
~ most importantly....... i have my master's thesis done!!! (p.s. if you want to see it, let me know, i can send it to you)

to do list
~ i need to actually send in the PDF file of my master's thesis (edit: completed at 1:30am on 4/24/08)
~ i need to clean
~ i need to do some yardwork
~ i need to find better car insurance.. like stuff that will cover me while living in ohio and michigan...
~ i need to finish up my resume and send it out to places and get a job

regressions
~ i no longer have a job
~ i no longer have income
~ i'm 25 and am living with my parents again

scientific papers are crazy... half the length is the goddamn references.. 

yesterday was exciting for me.. i felt like i was finally getting over the whatever-i-had, and put my contacts in, and actually went out.. it was great..

and then..

today, i seriously have no voice.. seriously..
and feel crappy again..

so, i'm sick..

so if there are people i've been around, and you get sick, i'm exceedingly sorry... :(

i need to write, but maybe doing this will help me with writing.. who knows...

i recently downloaded all the pictures i took with my cell phone onto my computer, and into my photobucket account... and there are some fun pictures in there... so, i present, in near-chronological order, the history of my phone's location, in pictures...

note: there are a *lot* of pictures here...

as a way for me to actually get to sleep last night and wake up in time for my appointment today, i decided that the most reasonable plan of action was to take an ambien at about 1:30 or 2am.. at about 3, i realized that i had kind of hit and gone past the nice "sleep-now" point, so of course i take another one.. and then i call andrew.. and i only half-remember what i said.. and i also, amazingly, made a twitter account to record my thoughts.. on my phone.. with few typo's..

so here, as a record of my stoned ambien night of infamy, is what i wrote in twitter (my account being Kenzieiam)

also, note, there are 4 posts.. they wouldn't all fit into one post.. so here they are from the oldest to the newest...

"I find that there are far more realms of reality that, when you`re with people dissolve. When it`s just you and your courtain folds of other
3dimencial beings, all of us somehow truely messing with the plot/reality of something we only minutely interested in. Welcome to the ambien
Nation, you computer chip whores
These lines are not sufficint room for everyone to get out."


i have NO idea where computer chip whores came from...

i have decided that, as soon as i have the means to (which may be a few years, admittedly), i want to go on an extended vacation to the olympic peninsula in northern washington, via a road trip though much of the northern us..

this is pretty much a for sure want to do kinda thing.. and hopefully i will see things like that is all..

so i'm a quarter of a century old now.. that doesn't seem right.. or possible.. doesn't feel like it, but eh..

after a beer, two cherry vodka and diet cokes (doubles), and a shot of soco at an irish pub in dublin (ohio) for my birthday, i ended up throwing up the next morning.. first time i have in quite some time.. but it was still fun..

i think that i live in my head too much for my own good.. i think maybe i keep people out too much.. i don't know..

there's more i want to type.. i don't know what it is though..

arg..

"guys just mess everything up.... or get murdered..."

um... 

so i bough a pair of heels today...

of my own volition...

weird...

 

alright, so...

since the last time i wrote stuff on here, much has happened, though not much has changed..

my lease is up at the end of feburary, so andrew flew in on the 14th to help with cleaning and packing, followed shortly after by my parents and a uhaul..

for valentines day, since he's corny and sweet and does too much for me, he got me a box of chocolates... or rather, he *made* a box, out of chocolates.... in which he put a nintendo ds.. which i've been playing pretty much every day since.. mario and luigi, partners in time..



i was pretty impressed, i've got to say..

so after my parents got there, we packed and cleaned, and drove back to ohio, and hit some whiteouts and black ice, which is soooo much fun.. and wind.. tons of wind..

still need to head back to delaware, to finish packing and cleaning.. wahoo.. was going to head over on friday, but then the weather decided to be a bitch.. i think some time tomorrow or sunday i'll be headed up to michigan to pick up the boy, then headed to delaware.. i hate the gas prices right now..

the drive is gonna suck... but hey.. gotta do it..

so, yeah, i'll be in ohio from now till august, and then i'll be in michigan, but i'm basically back in the midwest now, so if you wanna play, i'll be around :)

i'm totally messed up as far as schedules go.. sigh...

so, i ended up staying up for 30 hours, then sleeping for 24 hours, and now, i woke up at 9pm, and it's 7:30am..

sigh...